Depression & Crohn's

Happy 4am again. Its been a week since i had my colonoscopy and started steroids and vitamins. I am feeling better. My attitude is picking up, life seems a little sunnier even in these stormy times. My pain still exists, usually a dull roar but spikes with gas or as food is just traveling. My lack of motivation and energy makes my pain feel insignificant.

Feeling as if i have little to no worth or value will kill me i think. I have great friends and family, which i hoped would be enough. Though it does definitely help to have these people i still dont feel like living my life each day i wake up. Half the time i want to curl up in the fetal position and cry. I feel trapped by this pain, by these limitations on my life, there are things i can no longer do to their fullest.

I need prayer and kind words each day to help keep me on the road to feeling better. Thank you to everyone who's stood by me so far it melts my heart and i hope someday i can be there for you.

Ps about to shower.

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